I like night scenes... though I can't really take good pictures of them.
This was taken on 02 October 2005... Wasn't feeling very happy that day... For some reasons, I just could not do my work. I tried to do some work in NUS... really... but just dun feel like it. In the end, I gave up. Perhaps, this is how my students felt when they are doing my mathematics worksheets.
For the last eight months, I really feel lousy on sundays. Loneliness. It's something that I feel most on sundays. I still remember those happy days, when my wife was with me. Though, most of the time, she was either shopping or doing her work, her sheer presence with me was sufficient to make me happy. Perhaps, that is what they call love? But love is very different. It is more than a feeling. Love is a committment. It is about loving someone even if she chooses to leave you... it is about choosing to accept her faults... it is about accepting her for who she is... even if it hurts.
Through all these ups and downs, I have come to the conclusion that I need to do what is right and leave the rest to divine intervention. The journey is difficult but I must persevere. In time to come, I believe that I will understand why I need to go through all these. But, before that time comes, I just need to hang on to the hope that I have.
Similarly, my students... if you are reading this... do not give up, no matter what. Regardless of how difficult the situation is... in spite of how badly you did for the papers, there is always a purpose in every thing. Maybe you need to go through this to understand the importance of hard work. There is no joy without sadness, no sweetness of victory without the bitterness of failure, no smiles without tears, no gain without pain. Some of you may be feeling as lousy as me now... but take heart. You are not alone. Remember... there are many others in the world who are in a worse position than us. Remember... hurricane Katrina... remember Bali bombing... remember the Pakistan earthquake... remember that there are people who struggle to live. We need to be strong.
Sometimes, all that we need to do is to wait... wait for the correct timing? But we need to take that first step too... waiting alone cannot achieve much. To take this photo, I went to the bridge near Suntec and waited from 5 to 7pm... PAtience... In fact, I took a lot of pictures that day... Diligence... Each photo that I took is a lesson in itself... Learning from mistakes. When you finally get it right, the joy is something that you will never forget.
Maybe, it gives us comfort to know that we are never alone... As I was waiting for the sun to set, I realised that several other photographers were there waiting as well... I was not alone! Similarly, you have friends who will go through the same struggle with you. Knowing that you are not alone in the journey can bring new-found strength to carry on.
Okie... I think I have babbled enough today... till then... have a good night...
24 comments:
thought provoking post indeed.
results never come without hardwork.
hello its mi again.. cheer up la mr choy.. must learn to treasure things we have because the god loves every single one of us.. even the small grass in a lonely coner.. so dun be sad.. cheer up
-haiyuan
Mr Choy, we will always be with you! The picture is very nice!!
we will always be here for you... we all have times when we feel like giving up... but life must go on... tomorrow is always a new day. (: can't really think of anything to say so i shall give you another quote - i love quoting things XD
Love is patient, love is kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
whenever we are feeling down or sad, we must remember that we are actually still a lot more fortunate than countless of people out there, at least we have a roof above our heads =) so must cheer up mr choy! =D <--this is a cheesy smile
sometimes i wish to just give my life to one of those natural disaster victims out there, but i guess thats not entriely mature thing to do.
yes that's right. all that is holding me back is "that is a very childish thought". i havent seen much meaning in me since sec 2. in pri sch i have never been a chore to anione.
yes i do cut myself sometimes for the pain is too hard in the brain [for i have no trust in heart]. and it works. ppl say u balance things. once the pain in the brain is balanced with the physical injuries, i really feel better, in a sense. call me crazy but thats how i live it.
sometimes i wonder, if work = result, why it never works for me? im always labelled as lazy since sec 2. mr tan says im lazy, mr ong says i need practice [just lazy in another way of speaking]
i wonder wats with me sometimes. maybe its just a phase in growing up? im never too sure but since sec sch, i am nearly always a failure.
so much for that. oops sad entry maybe u shld just delete...
it was sad reading abt the front part....but i believe u will pull thru this =)cheers!!
wake up late in the afternoon, go out and have lunch, catch a movie, eat dinner then go home and sleep early; your sundays will pass by very quickly!
i don't know what to say to cheer you up, just a short quote:
"For myself I am an optimist - it does not seem to be much use being anything else."
Sir Winston Churchill
and anyway, your pic is really nice! :)
sad times in life are to enable us to cherish the happy times.
allow urself to be sad, and after that, pick urself up, smile and live life positively.
things don't always turn out the way we wan them to be. however we are given a choice to perceive them the way we wan them to be.
even in darkness, we are not afraid, we don't feel lost, because we have our other senses. =)
haha your post cheered me up after i looked at my prelims results :P i just feel like copying and pasting your whole post on my wall or sth. though these thoughts pop in my mind some time or other, they have never materialised, until i read your post. hoho!! just need to keep the big pic in mind ya?
juz wanna tel ya tat we hav neber given up on maths , and hope u wont gim up on urself too ... in fact , the photograph that u hav long awaited for was really nice :D
always look on the bright side...things always happen for a reason...i truly believe that good things always follows the bad ...so maybe sometime later u may find greater happiness in life...like u said...patience...just wait..n try to find the goodness in the bad...live life to the fullest ...yah...dun think too much...thinking too much and pondering about the bad times doesn't make one any happier...so some things we just have to let it go...yah...life's like tt...we just need to learn to accept it and carry on...they are just obstacles that will help in making us stronger individuals...happiness will come ur way...i'm sure...and u already have much happiness and joy around u yah...fellow students and ur colleagues...search for joy and life will be better...mmm..yah...take care...ur students like us will always be behind u...
Hello Mr. Choy. Just want to tell you that 4A '04 hasn't forgotten about you (at least not yet haha) and that we will always be supporting you :)
so inspiring!! muz jiayoux n nv giv up coz we're all here for u =)
erm.. ppl say tml will be a better day.. but i think tml will not really be a better day.. however the better tomorrow will come..
-haiyuan
though as students of 15/16 yrs old we are too "inexperienced" to experience the painn yoo r goin thru.. but remember there are so many students like us supporting you all the way! you are not alone! (: smiles =p makes me recall a nice song called "words" smile ; an everlasting smile ; a smile tt brings yoo near to me =) haha
hey. mr choy. take care :D u can overcome everything! :D
-2A
smiles ok.. just like our o level chi tml.. hav to work hard now.. or else will end up regreting in the future..
cheer up,mr.choy...things cannot never b perfect...what we can do is always look at the positive side.someone told me b4 that no pain is unbearable,just fight on!
dun b worried...we will always b with u!
hi mr choy, wonder if you still remember me.. haha i'm taking fmaths in jc k! thanks to you=p e photo is nice! haha miss ur lessons.. pls take care n be happy! (:
hellos mr choy.. will always remember your math lessons.. your patience with us, your continual support and your faith in me. =] i'll jiayou to achieve gd results.. the 4c'04 photos are super nice. and yups, you'll still see me in rv often.. tomorrow will always be better, don't give up hope k. take care. *4c'04 rocks*
hey mr choy...i shared, excitedly, in your joy that day u got married and now, just as much, i share in ur sorrows too.after i heard of this some time back i started to notice every sunday i see you in church that beneath ur mask, the everpresent smile, lies a deep grief. i can't totally understand how hurting it must be but i've felt horrible too and i really hope that God will take away that pain. but i guess you and i know God knows each time we cry alone in our room yet in His greatness and love allows us to grow through this struggle. i won't tell u to forget everything and be happy again becos i believe that isn't possible. but i hope you will find the same comfort in God and His promises in the bible that i have each time He gives me the understanding of His sovereignty, His power over all things, and His love and grace, how He personally will see each one of us through our struggles, giving everything, including His very own Son, to bring us back to Him again. and when the time comes, there'll be no more pain, only everlasting peace and joy.
it's nov 2nd alrd! i m waiting for e results!
yes eileen ! so am i !
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